The doc was happy with my progress with neurofeedback. I have reduced my A.D.D. He put it in terms of microvolts -- I reduced certain brain waves by so many microvolts.
So the doc thought it was a good time to begin addressing anxiety.
With A.D.D., the problem is too much of a certain type of slow electrical activity in the front of the brain.
With anxiety, the problem is too much of a certain type of fast electrical activity in the back of the brain.
To begin addressing anxiety today, the doc moved the scalp sensor to the back of the top of my head.
(Neurofeedback, at least with the system our doc uses, involves two clips on ear lobes and one on the head, attached with a conductive gel. The lines are connected to a computer, and the activity of the brain influences what the patient sees on the screen of a computer or television set.)
On screen was a new video game-like image. My task was to relax enough to fire a space ship through colorful, patterned tubes, like a futuristic flight through a fancy sewer pipe or utility passage, like something out of Star Wars.
If my relaxation lagged, the ship slowed down. If I continued to tense back up, the ship stopped. If I still didn't manage to relax, the screen went black. I could regain the screen and the space ship and forward motion once I returned myself to a relaxed state.
I almost fell asleep a couple of times. Perhaps that's part of my problem -- I don't know how to relax unless I completely konk-out.
Despite the drowsiness, I felt incredibly calm and happy as I left the office.
I guess this posterior move is working.
-Colin Foote Burch
